My life has been a mess lately and I almost cannot handle the stress. Still, I had to go to work, manage to smile and laugh with people around me because I know that it doesn’t matter what I feel inside, I need to at least strengthen my appearance. And ofcourse, think about ways to get over this whatever did life throw me again this time. One thing I know about myself is that I am good at being pretentious. But honestly it is hard. It is hard to keep pretending that you’re okay especially when you see other people having there merry-go-around kind of life. Idk maybe they have their own mess too.
I just had these realization, well it wasn’t an obsolete thing to think about because this was indeed proven to everyone that sometimes it’s too late to regret. I shouldn’t have done that or this. I shouldn’t have said that. I should have known.
But after all, this is life. It may be fucked up sometimes, sure it has reasons. So, I will never quit.
That’s the thing about love, it makes you happy and miserable at the same time.
It is never perfect but fulfilling.
Something within you makes it whole. It is the foundation of every relationship we have. And of course it binds our commitment with God. Love gives us heartaches but also new beginnings. Like a flower that is pale at night but blooms as the sun rise.
Growing up means one thing: independence. We all want it. Sometimes we use other people to try and get it for ourselves. Sometimes we find it in each other. Sometimes our independence comes at the cost of something else. And our cost can be high. Because more often than not, in order to gain our independence we have to fight. Never give up. Never surrender.
There are some people who won’t understand you but that doesn’t mean there’s something wrong with your self. No, it’s not. You are you and no one could ever change that. What you are is a choice that you wanted to become. Don’t worry too much about how they might judge you. They just want you to be like what they wanted you to be. Or Do things they expect you to do.
“But that’s you and no one could ever change that. It’s who you wanted to be and that’s okay. You don’t need to please everyone you meet.”
You had a life before whoever you’ve been with or you meet along the way. You have been wronged. You have been judged. You have been abandoned. But there you are, walking stand straight with God. He guided and saved you. He lifted you up and lead you into what’s right. He trusted you the steering wheel and now it’s time for you to take good care of yourself. You should be wise and witty. Learn from your mistakes and remember that God lead you back unto the road so value it.
“Value the chances given to you and make this life worthwhile.”